Story 2 - Time to let go

It was time - time to let go. I closed my eyes and held his hands tightly, wondering why this was so difficult. Yes, he had been the apple of my eyes for the last three years - and i have no idea what i would do with all my time after going back home. But my nervousness wasn't just because of the thought of going back to an empty house. It was something more - the fear that he would no longer depend on me for the little things, that his ideas and personality is going to be molded by other people he meets, that something would happen to him if he was taken away from my sight even for a minute. 

My eyes glisten slightly. It wasn't supposed to be like this - he is supposed to be the one that cries. I am a little hurt that he doesn't - instead he is just really excited about today. I tell him that i will be waiting for him when he comes back and ask him to be careful, and point out that i have kept his favorite snack in the bag. He gives me a sloppy grin and a hug and says "Ma, don't worry. I will be gone only for half a day". As he walks towards his classroom and waves at me with a confident smile, i realize that he will grow up much sooner than i want him to. But he will grow up just fine. And isn't that what would make a mom proud? 

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